These last two weeks have become progressively more difficult regarding my mental health and well-being. As I mentioned in my last post, I have had to wean off of all medications and am adjusting to the changes that come with doing so. For the first month or two, I was thriving, doing better than I had done in years. But that has changed drastically over the last two weeks.
It’s weird because I’m happy, but I’m also depressed. I didn’t even think that was possible, but it is and I’m living proof. I’m in a great place in my life, things are going so well for my boyfriend and I but I’m still depressed. It’s not because I don’t feel valued or feel unwanted, I’m not lonely and I’m actually very happy with life. What I do feel is that I’m not going anywhere with my life and I don’t have any goals to work towards right now, so I’m at a standstill.
If you know me, I’ve always tried to have something, even if it was just a small something, to work towards. But I don’t have anything that in working towards right now and it is killing me. So what am I going to do about it?
I’m going to remain positive and optimistic about the situation, I know that I can and will find a new goal to work towards.
I will not dwell on or feed into my depression, but I will allow myself to feel the emotions and understand them.
I’m going to take care of myself both mentally and physically. Self care and self love will be my priorities from here on out. Not only will I care for myself to overcome my depression, but also to create a habit that I can maintain to reduce future chances of depression.
I will delve deeper into the Word of God and make my faith a bigger priority. My faith has faltered over the last two weeks and I need to fix that.
Last but not least, I will work on creating attainable short term and long term goals.
My boyfriend and I were discussing what I can do to stay busy and have goals to work toward when we cane up with the idea of putting me back in school. While I love education and learning, it can be very expensive to take online classes and difficult to find accredited degrees. After much brainstorming and talking about what I enjoy and what I’m passionate about, we decided that I’m going to take this next month to really buckle down on my blog.
I love blogging because of the therapeutic benefits it offers and there are so many tasks to do in maintaining a blog, so I would constantly have something to keep me occupied.
Today, I’m going to focus on a one month plan for my blog and work on blog post ideas. I’m going to work on being more active in the blogging community and offering meaningful content for everyone.
If I am successful over the next month, we will take the steps to establish a more professional blog with hosting and an actual domain. I think it will serve me well to focus on this goal because I already know how much I enjoy it and how helpful blogging is to my mental health. Who knows, it may even open up other opportunities for me.
Tell me, why do you blog? What do you get out of it, is it purely for pleasure or do you do it for a source of income? Let me know in the comments!