December 2, 2015
I’m down again, I hate these mood changes. Depression sucks. It’s like I climb to the top of the mountain and fall back down to the bottom, then try to get back up only to be hit by a landslide every time I make progress. It would be so easy right now to take all the pills in my purse, it’d be enough to kill me for sure. But I have to be stronger than that, no more negative thoughts. I need to reach out to someone. I need to make sure that I don’t do it. I’m here for a reason and I vowed that if I made it through the last suicide attempt that I wouldn’t try it again. I need to climb as far as I can. I’ve GOT THIS. I can’t give up, too many people are counting on me.