Blog Update!

  Hello lovelies! It has been quite some time since I have posted and there have been many changes since then. I can’t wait to tell you about them! We Relocated! My boyfriends employer relocated us because he finally got the promotion we’ve been waiting for! That came with relocation assistance and a pretty decent sized…

HELLo

How can I go from having a good day to feeling like I am so worthless and should just die? Depression sucks. So. Much. I was okay today, I didn’t want to hurt myself, I didn’t hate myself, I didn’t want to die. But now I do. And why? I have no earthly idea. It just…

Strength In Prayer

Sitting here, crying on my knees. “God take this craving away. I don’t need it, I don’t want it, make it stop!” “Just help me make it through this night, that’s all I’m asking.” “One more hour clean, help me make it another hour, please.” I begin begging for strength, serenity, courage and wisdom. “God…

But I’m Not Weak

I have to go back on my anxiety medication, I can’t go without it. I’m suffering too much, the depression and cravings are crippling. I was so happy when the doctor said I could come off of it, but it was just a trial and it didn’t go well so I have to go back on…

Making A Difference

I have this crazy idea that I can make a difference in this huge world. One person out of, what, 7 billion? Is that even possible? I think so. I want to share my story, I want to tell the suicical that life gets better, I want to tell the newcomer that sobriety is the…

Crashing Without The Burn

Last night I crashed. I caved into the depression and the thoughts that I wasn’t good enough, that I was worthless, that sobriety wasn’t worth it. I hit a low that I hadn’t hit in a really long time, but I opened up about it. I talked to my boyfriend and we worked through it….

Down We Go

I can feel it creeping up, it has been for a while now. The last week I’ve slept about 20 hours a day and even that isn’t enough. I wake up only to take nap after nap. Energy drinks nor coffee can keep me awake for more than 30 minutes at any given time. It’s…

240 Days Later (Sobriety)

I can remember sitting there, listening to Macklemore and praying for a way out, praying for something to change, some miracle to happen so I could sober up. It hadn’t been long since I had started drinking again, but I shouldn’t have even taken that first sip. I didn’t start over when I started drinking…

Free 7 day Challenge Group 

I will be hosting a 7 day challenge group (beginning Jan 1, 2017) on addiction, recovery & mental illness. Join here! Feel free to contact me should you have any questions! Successdriven10@mail.com Xoxo Lindsey