Blog Update!

  Hello lovelies! It has been quite some time since I have posted and there have been many changes since then. I can’t wait to tell you about them! We Relocated! My boyfriends employer relocated us because he finally got the promotion we’ve been waiting for! That came with relocation assistance and a pretty decent sized…

One Year Sober!

I DID IT! A whole year. 365 days. I. Stayed. Sober. I have 3 different blog posts that I've written to post today, but none of them express what I really feel. I feel happy, proud, accomplished, excited, determined, motivated and inspired. 365 days, WOW! If I can go a whole year living life sober,…

Coming Soon

I’m currently working on a blog post that is rather tough to write. It is extremely mentally draining, but so necessary to share. It’s a topic that I haven’t entirely covered on my blog thus far, a form of a secret I’ve been keeping. Up until this point, the timing hasn’t been right and I…

Dirty Laundry Is A Blessing

Sitting on the couch, I look over and see a pair of my boyfriends dirty socks from the previous day. Most women might get frustrated at the sight of dirty laundry not being in the laundry basket, but not me.  I don’t work, I’m not in school and I’m not raising a child. That leaves…

Positivity Amidst The Challenges

These last two weeks have become progressively more difficult regarding my mental health and well-being. As I mentioned in my last post, I have had to wean off of all medications and am adjusting to the changes that come with doing so. For the first month or two, I was thriving, doing better than I had…

HELLo

How can I go from having a good day to feeling like I am so worthless and should just die? Depression sucks. So. Much. I was okay today, I didn’t want to hurt myself, I didn’t hate myself, I didn’t want to die. But now I do. And why? I have no earthly idea. It just…

Strength In Prayer

Sitting here, crying on my knees. “God take this craving away. I don’t need it, I don’t want it, make it stop!” “Just help me make it through this night, that’s all I’m asking.” “One more hour clean, help me make it another hour, please.” I begin begging for strength, serenity, courage and wisdom. “God…

But I’m Not Weak

I have to go back on my anxiety medication, I can’t go without it. I’m suffering too much, the depression and cravings are crippling. I was so happy when the doctor said I could come off of it, but it was just a trial and it didn’t go well so I have to go back on…

Making A Difference

I have this crazy idea that I can make a difference in this huge world. One person out of, what, 7 billion? Is that even possible? I think so. I want to share my story, I want to tell the suicical that life gets better, I want to tell the newcomer that sobriety is the…